Get it off your chest!

Idk if i can ever get to apologise to you for what i did. I just hope we can maybe talk for one last time. I miss you and i hope you're doing well friend

 

Please, stop venting about how toxic and abusive your girlfriend is to your friends. Its annoying and you put them in a awkward position because when they give you advice you don't follow, I even dare to say its egoistic. Nobody can put yourself out of this situation but you. Believe me I've been there.

 

Never pretend to be "fine" when it's not.
It will never bring happiness nor it is fine to keep it all in.
It's okay to ask for help, it's also okay to cry. No one is perfect.
Never ever hold it in as it will cause irrational decisions.
Never listen to others but your own heart.
It is your happiness that matter the most, think for yourself & not others.
I pray my ex-friend would be able to do that once more.

Thank you for reading if you are.

 

Pls off your pet loot when passing by Ulu 1. Thank you for your cooperation.

 

Feels surreal to be in the situation I'm in now. After dealing with so many setbacks due to the pandemic and family stuff associated with that, I finally got through to getting a new business dealing with manufacturing going. Funny enough spending so much time dealing with regulation stuff lead to government employees putting in a good word for me and I got contacted by the government and a local police department that they want to do some large scale business with me.

So stressful, but so satisfying. Just thankful that a small handful of people supported me the whole way and didn't lose faith in me whenever I was struggling.

 

Its funny how someone has to quit something that you really enjoy, just because is a "waste of time", and when you finally archieve success, the only thing you can think off is to have some free time to do that thing....im really wondering wich one is the real waste....

 

created ig for doggo but what the fuck.
how do people do this.
maintaining 2 igs at once is too tiring.
it too much effort.

did it because i thought hey after posting i can clear some space in icloud but hahahahahaha who am i kidding.
i’m keeping everything.
:S

 

Waking up in another few hours more.. I left with literally 6 hours of sleep. Wew

 

today my MY friends taught me "nasi kang kang"

i will never be the same again

 

Today a dude on mapleroyals forum mentioned ''nasi kang kang'' and I looked it up on the internet.

I will never be the same again

 

In the end i still used a pain scale
to measure the depth of our love

 

Oh well, I guess I will have to wait BC

 

Reducing my duration of playing MapleRoyals from 2 hours to 1 hour per day until September for my examinations.

 

IF IT AINT BROKE DONT FIX IT ಠ_ಠ

 

This is bullsh*t

 

Please don't devalue yourself to a puppet that is willing to listen to others just because :
1. they share their experience & you take it seriously without experiencing it yourself
2. stop thinking for yourself, eventually forgetting what is truly important to you in life(eg. you feel happy whenever you play a favourite game without thinking about toxic stuff)

So what if others judge you by saying you're lifeless while playing your favourite mushroom game?
Ignore them. Only you know how to make yourself happy.
Don't think about the negative things life throws at you if you're going to push people who truly cared for you.

You eventually became a person I hate.(The type to toss away friends after getting boyfriend/girlfriend, years of friendship meant nothing.)
You can say you haven't change a bit, but that is just your perspective. You no longer accept feedback from a friend as you saw them as judgemental.
You can deny everything I knew of you from before.
You can say that I'm wrong in everything, you can even say my depression is worthless compared to yours.

I do not know what "pressure" problem you had that you suddenly do not want to share before cutting ties with me, but my depression problem is something I will never get to have a 2nd chance.(Those who lost someone dear to them would understand)
I had to stop thinking about my depression & try to comfort you.
But alas, you saw my actions as clingy just because I tried to be nicer to you.

Try not to act stupid by not knowing whether you are happy or sad & going to shoot people if they try to guess.
Try not to act smart by using the wrong word when you want to treat them like sh*t, it's "attitude" & not "personality".
Try not to mislead me by saying "if I want things changed between us, why should I take the effort to communicate?" in an argument.

If you're going to give up after one "attack" when someone is having depression & deem them toxic, you are not fit to comfort others.
I have not told you this before, but I had several "attacks" from you when you're being unreasonable during your fit of rage.
Why I didn't bother to tell you about it? Answer = every word I use is judgemental to you, so why bother telling?

Don't try to have high expectations of someone if you DO NOT share your problems & going to shoot them whether they guess right or wrong.

As you were once a friend I trusted, I do not want you to continue to "pretend" to be fine. I truly wish for your happiness like before.

What I've learned is that you are easily influenced by good things people tell you when you're vulnerable & your definition of trust has broken my definition of trust. "Trust broken in people by pressure > Trust gain by believing in them"

You can continue to call me a "victim for acting like one", or an "idiot for still trying".
If I can't believe in you as a friend, then what should I believe in?

Tbh, even now I still feel like smacking you so dang hard.

 

"revert" ASHFDIWIOEBGUOISHEABDIHEIOABFIPHAEWFIP ARHGHGH

 

3 week ago all no problem but now left 5 day then suddenly want change time slot? Cb u rly think we ur dog is it

 

I want to die.