2/5 yikes my dude Spoiler Spinal surgery soontm I think maybe I’ll be able to get stronger pain killers now from the doctors. Sigh…
Will the world really see the light at the end of this tunnel anytime soon? I've lost faith in humanity on getting out of this pandemic anytime soon. So much disappointment :/ Spoiler I miss traveling
Imagine using someone else’s suffering for content and cash..... you a monster if u ever think that is ok to do it......
Whats the point of bossing when APQ gives you more. Whats the point of farming when gearing doesn’t reward you anymore. Whats the point of me frustrating over this and still continue to work hard like before. Yet, there will only be more disappointments, maybe, just maybe a little more..
If someone important for u, their bullshit thing is interesting for u too. If someone not important for u, even their important things is something u put out of your ears.
I just figure out Saix try to help Xion naming the names of her friends like Roxas and Axel.. why i always cry when i saw Xion's life :c
Not the news I was expecting, still 2/5 yikes my dude. (when will it be 3/5?) Spoiler Moderate scoliosis, (undetected from childhood, they suspect) degenerative disc disease, spinal stenosis, and a few bone spurs. All between my L1-L5. I'm 23 years old. Recent CT Scan showed a bit of my disc protruding into my already narrow spinal canal as well, causing the sciatica nerve pain when I sit down. MRI could take a year, and surgery could also take a year. There's even a chance they wouldn't accept me for surgery. I was told I could be in a wheelchair by the time I am in my 40s if they do not accept me for surgery. All in all, the next two years are going to be even harder than it has been for the last several months because I spent all that time fighting for a diagnosis. Only to find out there is no pain medication to fix it, there are some to relieve some of the pain but it will never be 100% or even 50% so I now will have good days and bad days. Nice. Spoiler We have lives outside of the game too. Everyone is dealing with something and if you can't grasp that then maybe you need to look inward.
Some people's words are just words. They say it just because it sounds nice but they don't mean what they say. Nothing annoys me more than when someone expects you to be okay with something that they wouldn't be okay with if you did it. When can I just give up, shut out the world around me till I disappear, or not wake up in this mind. Walked Through Hell by Anson Seabra Spoiler And the light has fully turned off. Thought I met someone special that wouldn't betray me because we found out we had the same ideals, or so I thought. I flew across the states during covid because we were both tired of distance and I was tired of home. We agreed to be friends first while I was there. Stayed in NYC for 3 months, met up only twice in the first 2 week and you told me it was too hard to stay friends while you were still healing. So you stopped talking to me. The remaining two and a half months passed and I gave you the space and time. Left one last message before I left the state and all you said was thanks for being my listener. Guess the 6 months spending everyday with you on video, voice, and in game meant nothing more and I was replaceable. It only took me traveling across the states for you to figure out where your heart lies. Both recovering from our own individual break ups; I was healing alongside you, but it wasn't the same for you. How can you say "I love you" and not mean it. Guess only one of us was speaking the truth. Still the only thing I wish is for you to heal and find happiness wherever you find it. Thank you to the friends I met up with in NY. Being out of my comfort on this solo adventure, you guys made me feel welcomed and it really brightened my time there. I'm sad I had to leave, but I'm sure we'll hang out again soon.