tfw people are upset with you self-deprecating too much but you don't know how to apologise for that except by self-deprecating more
This is just my opinion so don't take it personally. How many people are still willing to communicate without perceiving it negatively & use whatever means to justify themselves? How many people are still willing to be a friend to someone else even if they had a disagreement on things? It is always easier to "judge" others toxic when someone don't like how the conversation goes & willing to "unfriend" so easily.
Zakum's map corners are so mysterious. Sometimes you get NX, CS's and sometimes u took the buyer's SB.
Finally got off my lazy ass to change my remote control's batteries The moment when I realized the old batteries expired in Feb 2021, and I kept using it
Im not interest in you just because you are nice to me, im interest in you and give back your tender caring to me because you are smart enough for me, and have same thoughts/common sense with me. Do you like a person who already know what kind of drink you gonna call when go to coffee, or do you like a person who you will have to explain from a-z what you gonna do? We really connect with someone important to us by an unspoken way, not in a way that required a lot of speak, because only need to talk alot (of bullshit) with strangers.
Still waiting for the MRI (was told 8-12 months...) and then another year or longer for spinal surgery. Still no family doctor (can't do anything at all in Canada without one wtf is this nonsense) and I'm unable to speed the process up at all. Get your shit together Canada. Free health care but it takes over 2 years for you get the help you need.
Spoiler I think what I envy the most is your confidence. All I feel is this crushing anxiety, which I objectively understand is misplaced and stupid. Based on previous record and what's in front of me, I feel like even my worst will be somewhat fine. I will still achieve more or less what I need to achieve. Maybe not in the same way, but somewhere like it. I know that what you're telling me is true. Yet I still have this gripping sensation of failure. I feel like I haven't done enough. I constantly feel like I've wasted my time or haven't been productive enough. I've cried more in the past three weeks than I think I have in the past 10 years combined. I know it's almost over, but I just keep feeling like I'm treading water on the surface but I'm so close to drowning. I don't understand what's happening to me. I'm not this person, this person who feels so overwhelmed constantly that if I'm not careful I just burst into tears. And I feel like I can't talk to anyone about it because this is such a unique experience. It's terrifying that so much hard work, the past two years, really just boils down to this one thing. This seven hours. None of my outside friends really understands what this means, and the person that I usually go to for this is just... doing fine. You keep telling me to fake it till I make it and that I have all the tools I need, but I just feel like all the facts are spilling out of my head the more I study. I feel like the more I learn the more I forget. I feel like I gave up so much to be here and I just ... feel really overwhelmed right now. idk I need this to be over.