Get it off your chest!

So that's how it feels having your heart broken?

I never thought I'd feel it so badly.

It really hurts.

 

Christmas is sad for me and it doesn't fill me with happiness like other young people.

It might be because I'm in base 30 and seeing my nephews give him his Christmas gift (I shed some tears)

little by little I am recharging my PC gamer

It's old but I can still enjoy the games that entertain me a lot apart from playing mapleroyals

 

Good intentions = Discount 3b

 

shame on you

 

Yo te dije pollito que es tremenda rata xDDDD

 

i dont care if u put me in blacklist.....
blah blah blah u should do this.....
blah blah blah u should do that.....

this is like watching the best show ever

u are done ma dude

 

How about we make Royals version of “banned people exchange” - you can have the cringe ass narcissistic clown back to the jail and in return we get her back after months of waiting and rooting for her? I don’t think there will be a single person in the entire community who will disagree. Not even ONE.

We want justice.

 

perhaps alcoholism is what holds you back from becoming a pro

 

A shepherd will always have sheeps following him....

 

This thing about the past.. they all say It haunts you, but you never believe it until you see it through your own eyes.

How can you get rid of your past, when every door in front of you is closed?

How can you improve yourself, when you get kicked in the guts every time you take a step up towards your success?

I wish I had the answer.

 

SINGTEL SUCKS

Spoiler: F5

 

I just woke up from a nightmare where I woke up from a nightmare.

In the first nightmare I woke up and I realize my mouth was hurting and then my teeth started falling out. I panicked wondering what the fuck was going on and I eventually woke up from that nightmare.

In the second nightmare I woke up and my mouth was also hurting but this time all of my teeth eventually fell out. Between the panicking and the process of losing all my teeth I rammed my head into the wall trying to wake up but it was in vain. After losing all of my teeth I eventually woke up and my teeth were fine.

#NightmareInception

 

remember when I said alchoholism was hindering ~someone~ of becoming a pro?

Im seriously thinking about taking a notebook with me all the times I go outside touch some warm sands and/or drink anything that can make you feel drunk

and I'm writing this on my phone rn while I'm drinking some Whiskey while I watch my friend live perform at a pub

I'm beyond hopeless rn

 

Fuck off COVID

 

4 thousand miles is pretty damn far. feels like I still have trust issues.

 

I wish I could get a glance into the future 1-2 years from now to know that everything would be okay and that I was making the right decision

 

I had a lovely night the other week. Rant warning.

Spoiler: Rant

I had a short lived paid internship as a night time mailman. I was tagging along with an employee in his car but I quickly declined to continue.
During the introduction meeting before the internship, and on their website, they talk about driving legally, eco driving, following the rules, the job is around 50% part time, so on and so forth.

We were supposed to be done around 6 am
We had to be done 7 am because that's the deadline for newspapers to be delivered.

The mentor I had drove illegally as fuck. At one point he even looked at a car in the distance and asked me "is that a police car?". Who cares? You're supposed to drive legally, right?
He drove so bad I was on the verge of vomiting due to motion sickness, despite having motion sickness medication with me.

We were done 6:50 am... and he told me he sometimes have twice as many packages to deliver.

I told this to the boss and he said the 7 am deadline is only for newspapers, not for packages. So bascially, if we don't have enough time, deliver the papers, then redo the route again for packages. So, it could take to 8 am some nights. What happened to this being a part time job? He also told me motion sickness and working longer than anticipated is common, it can happen to anyone.

What does that tell you, working overtime and getting motion sickness being common? For me that's a clear sign something needs to change. Christ.

 

Cause I've been looking at the sky to show me where I went wrong
Been looking at the sky like someone was looking down
But it keeps raining on me
When I been looking at the sky since I was like five years old
Been looking for the stars, but it seems like they're all gone
And it breaks my heart, you know
But I think it's time to go.