Notes to Self: 1. It is not you responsibility to please everyone. 2. You owe it to yourself to be happy. 3. Stop ignoring your friends though, it's shitty. 4. Take some deep breaths every now and then. 5. Robert is the best Dream Daddy. 6. Better times are ahead, and are on its way.
I can no longer tell if I really like someone anymore, as I have been betrayed and had my heart broken umpteen times that my brain and heart doesn't know whether or not to recognize and acknowledge these feelings.
i just grinded 4 hours killing these motherfucking green cornians looking for cornian's dagger. then, i do a simple google search of cornian's dagger only to realize that you forge it from dark cornian's busted dagger. i am mad at myself. i am more mad at the game: WHY THE FUCK DO GREEN CORNIANS WIELD WHAT LOOKS EXACTLY LIKE CORNIAN'S DAGGER. WHY WOULD THE STRONGER DARK CORNIAN WIELD THE BUSTED DAGGER AND THE WEAKER GREEN CORNIAN WIELD THE FIXED DAGGER. this is also the second time i've done this quest so i don't even understand what i was thinking..
Just received a message from my best friend that he was diagnosed with a tumor near to his spinal cord. God please make sure he will be fine..
When we were 11 you were so shy, I caught you looking at me every day in class, whenever I came near you, you would shut down and couldn't speak. When you were 12 you tried so hard to break us up, you wanted me to be yours so you kept buying me school dance tickets. I hate dances. When you were 13 after the painful breakup we had, you silently wished I'd look your way and give you another chance, you cried yourself to sleep every night and I didn't know. When you were 14 we went to different high schools, we went no contact for 4 years but you still had hope that you'd see me again. You thought I hated you, but I never did. When you were 15 you felt like you were about to crumble, but still held on and kept wishing on shooting stars, wish chips, eyelashes, every night before you went to bed. When you were 16 you found the nerve to message me, and I shut you down because I was still hurt. I wanted to apologize, but I never did. When you were 17 you came to my high school trying to find me on several occasions, but I was never there. I was at home, sad and alone. When you were 18 you bought a box of chocolates and a bouquet of roses on Valentine's Day and ended up on my street. You chickened out at the last second and went home. When you were 19 you never left my side, we had a big future planned after we told each other what happened through out the years. How scared we both were to speak up. When you were 20 you left. You didn't look back, you just gave up and walked away like all of those years meant nothing. I denied myself saying I wasn't in love because we were just 13. But the more I think about it, and the more my chest feels like caving in, I can't help but notice that you meant everything to me and I love you. I have since day one, and I will continue to wait for you. P.S - I wish I went to one of those dances with you.
Titanic is a stupid movie, okay? There I said it. The girl knows Jack for all of what 4 days? And can't get over him 80 years later? What the fuck?
I am going to pretend it was not my 200 party. I am going to pretend it was not me who hosted the after party. I am also going to pretend it was not me who dropped the eye, and I am going to pretend it was not my book cause it wasnt my 200 party prize after all. Who cares about 20m right?
My half asleep happy thoughts of spooning that massive Totoro you gave me were suddenly interrupted. Would I still be big spoon if I'm 50 cm shorter??? That'd be backpack mode, I know. But on the question of SPOONS, is it more proper to be called big spoon or little spoon? Big spoon by position but little spoon by stature. It's a ridiculous and silly thought. But I can't stop pondering over it haha!