Spoiler a friend is leaving the game again and i'm feeling down just like before, i'm not even the closest person to him but he told me i'm the only person he told to that he was leaving :/ i don't know how to feel about this, i hate it when friends leave a part of me is telling me he's joking around but if he is i'm gonna get so mad when/if he logs on ...another friend told me if i didn't like friends leaving, i shouldn't make any friends right now i just feel like taking his advice. tl;dr making friends online sucks.
It's been 4 years and I still feel the same amount of regret if not more.. For being such a ball-less loser, easily swayed by shit talkers and not trusting you more. Back then you were the only one I could pour my heart out to without being judged. My biggest regret in life is not dropping out of school, but not trusting you more despite all you did for me. You wouldn't have been taken advantage of in your drunken state and bear that scum's child while he's partying happily in Australia. Despite all this time, I can't find it in myself to forgive myself for not being there for you, what happened then would probably have not happened and you wouldn't have suffered like that. It's been 3 years since you last cut contact with me. I hope you found happiness in your life and I'm so sorry, Chloe.
He’s a toxic piece of shit and you guys let him in the group after some thin apologies because he’s rich. So glad I’ve decided to move.
Some people on this game are such assholes LOL. Getting tired of it here, honestly. What's the point when so many people I actually like aren't even playing anymore? My goals here have been achieved and I have nothing left to accomplish. I find my disgust for the few in this community outweigh the many. I roll my eyes at all these obvious RWTers, these feedback forum posts that make me want to smack my forehead into a wall, these childish trigger happy reporters who try to ban others on the most retarded shit. And I find myself thinking sadly about how I loved old Royals, which no longer exists. I'm really losing attachment for this place. This is not the game I used to love. I don't even know why I'm still here. This server is dying, and it has been for quite a while. I really loved Royals, you know, back then. But now, like many people who have said this before me, I also just don't really care anymore.
Spoiler: more ranting :/ i miss you friend .. sooo the other day I was driving with a friend and they go “soo how come you don’t talk to xxxx anymore? you guys were so close... always talking to each other everyday ... what happened?” I had to hold back the urge to tell them what happened but I did anyways and it made me realize how dumb I was for ending our friendship.. so thinking back I’m bummed we let our friendship be like this. It’s primarily my fault but like... I was just so pissed off (you can’t blame me for acting this way.. after what you did). if I could go back in time, I’d go back and fix it but I think we’re too far/deep(?) into this to even go back to how it was before.. —- alsoooo.. I don’t even know what to say when friends ask me how things are going with <insert guy’s name> because I’m ashamed af to even tell them I tried to amend and get back w/ someone who didn’t even value and care for me. why didn’t I see it coming when they all have told me it’s a big mistake and I’d get my hopes down. They keep asking how things are going and I just can’t bring myself to tell them what happened and how much I hated myself for what I’ve done. *sigh* I’m completely done with everything rn. idk if this is because of school or just everything happening within the same month. everything is just falling out of place and idk what to do anymore.