Get it off your chest!

My cat's sleeping on me and I want to use the bathroom, but don't want to wake her up. Please get her off my chest!

 

Well, this is it.
Time to leave my hometown to further my studies.
I have to say goodbye to my family and friends.

 

This is America.

 

I also like nail polish, but y'all need to chill. Yes, I pre-ordered it. No, I didn't buy it secondhand. You don't necessarily have to accept that your favorite brand is fallible, but calling me a liar when I tell you I pre-ordered just like you did, yet got a bad bottle, makes you sound kinda unhinged.

 

First day in university.
My fucking car battery just died at a friend's house wtf

 

"Push the gas, get a motherfuckin' nose bleed
She ain't never met a youngin' do it like me
She got a man but says she really like me
She doin' things to excite me"

thank you for showing me how fun one can have.. your song is on repeat a lot LOL maybe we will meet on vacation some day again, and continue what we had

 

I never thought that I would wonder how it feels to actually be happy again. Just breathing is tiring ffs.

 

So I used to be really close friends with a girl.
Everything went fine, until I was tired of having 2 personalities, one for her and one for my friends(the actual person that I am).
I came to decide that I'm done playing this stupid mask game, and frankly, I couldn't be happier about that decision. Finally done pretending, finally able to be myself without worrying about it, suddenly met a lot of people and made new friends, everything went well.
So she backed off and took some time away from me, like 6 months ish.
During that time, she changed, and I hated the person that she became, from a shy and quiet person, to an attention seeking w***re that is starving for any kind of attention.
She tried to renew our relationship(not a romantic one), but it didn't work whatsoever. For some stupid reason, she thought it did work.
She has a boyfriend. That dude, which happens to be my friend, was pissed at me, because apparently, she avoided his question every time he asked if she is inlove with me.
Back when we started our relationship, I couldn't be more obvious about not looking for a gf and not looking for a romantic relationship, due to some reasons that I might go down to in a future post.

So I was sitting there, while she is most likely in love with me, and decided to just back off for 6 months and become a trash person, and she legit thought that we can renew our relationship.
I tried to end it, I told her that it cannot work right now due to how each of us changed along the way, she took that as a "there's hope, it can work". HOW CAN YOU LIE TO YOURSELF THAT BADLY GODAMN
I had to go over to her again, and be mean about it, and to be straightforward about it, and to try my best to throw it into her face so she will realize that it can't work out.

And now after doing that she's acting like I legit broke up with her, even though she still has the same boyfriend, and I have to take that stupid backlash for no reason.

Despite this story being annoying as hell, the moral is very clear to me.

I'm proud, and happy, to walk freely without any masks, and to be the person that I am, for better or worse.
One of my best decisions ever.

 

And so we are left with 1 gm only!

 

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The more it hurts, the more powerful a gift it can be. This hurts more than anything. I wonder how much better I'll become, thanks to it? I have to work with it, absorb it; not just feel the pain. I need to remember to use it to relate to others, not just wallow. After all, I can fake it; in wider society, so many people can't. As ever, I'm privileged, no matter how profoundly it doesn't feel like it at times.

Thank you, life and happenstance, for this gift. I'm sorry I didn't recognize it sooner. I'll do my best to use it!

 

I haven't been able to calm down after getting the thing I ordered for you hahahaha

I put so much thought into everything that I send you, but this one, you'll love this one.

I can't wait to see your smile when you open your present.

I love you, so dearly.

That cheesy honeymoon phase still hasn't dwindled.

I can't stop smiling this derpy smile to myself...

 

What's with the sudden influx of people trying to make Shadowers look bad?

 

yuh

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dat

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i used to trap by the subway

 

I broke a girl's heart today, I feel so fucking bad now.. fk

 

toilet is clogged

 

Failed scrolling....
Accidentally sold a valuable item for nothing....

Passed my exam.... *It's something*

 

Dropped about 900m on sub-par INT items and I'm beginning to regret it.

 

You could have walked away, you could have kept quiet. Instead, you were honest about it and I'm very thankful for that! Your actions really show what kind of a person you are! We need more players like you

 

i clogged the toilet yesterday