yea, i've had that feeling the first time i started.. all new fresh start, no friend no wealth, but really have to thank two nice people i met in game that "pushed" me to continue play the game, because i am not used to this rate D: because of them i still playing this server today, they somehow dissappeared after a week or two after we get known eachother... sad
i like what you say there "It's also kind of weird knowing that behind these cute pixels I'm talking to, there's a grown ass man/woman behind it if that makes any sense"
o/ ez fran add. But To be honest I felt lonely when I first started but you need to find your own "niche"/guild.
A good start is to join a guild (though I assume you probably already know that). Other than that joining any pq's (apq/lpq) is also a great way to form friendships with others
My advice is to reach out to peeps and honestly, don't have sky high expectations for the friendships you might make here. Some people might be able to form deep meaningful friendships with you, but more often than not it's still online interaction over a virtual platform, and hence limited inherently (relative to physical face-to-face interaction). That said, you still can derive enjoyment from just meeting and hanging with people that you can click with, even on superficial levels. Just gotta have your expectations right
Royals is a reflection of real life in this respect, and yes, it does suck. Life sucks. It's absurd and even if you recognize this fact, it changes nothing; you must accept and deal with it. Without exception, every single person on this server whom I've met and seen is already attached to and ingrained with their own social clique. This is how it is on every other private server, how it was and currently is on GMS, and how it is in real life. Generally speaking, people engender close relationships in their childhood, teenage years, and young adulthood, and spend the rest of their lives strengthening those relationships, relegating very little time to outside relationships. That's simply how people are. Personally, I've never made any friends in my entire life and I still don't see how everyone else seems to have done it, given that culture has all sorts of absurd social mores and cues which don't make any sense on a rational level. And I guess I'll never be able to learn how people do it, since nothing about the world is changing or is going to change in this regard. I suppose I'll always be someone who walks alone, walking down a dark road. I'm one of the people standing in the shadows, watching as the world goes by. For instance, I see so many threads pop up, saying things like "oh, buddy me in game and we'll be friends!" Try doing that, and see just how receptive most of these people are. It feels like pulling teeth just to get them to talk. I try to do the normal social thing and say "wb" when people log in and am met with no response, and when I try to say something silly or which would otherwise spark a conversation of some sort, nobody wants to talk. That doesn't make sense to me; if I get a buddy request from someone and that person tries to make conversation with me, you can bet your ass that I'll try to reciprocate in some manner. That, to me, is common sense, which seems to be sorely lacking among people for as long as I can remember. But I've always been told that relationships are not supposed to be thought of in terms of mathematical equations. They're supposed to be "give and take," whatever the fuck that means. And that's how it is in real life as well; people seem to communicate to others that they want friends, and they tell me that they want friends, and I'm happy to oblige, yet nothing happens in the end. I put in the effort, we can speak cordially for some time, yet the moment I stop putting in hours and hours of time, the other person seems to forget about me and do his own thing. I think that, since we as human beings are supposedly "social animals," this does in fact suck because this means that more people go their own way in an increasingly isolated and fragmented world, meaning that the way we're living our lives now is increasingly at odds with the way we are evolutionarily and biologically hardwired. Ultimately, though, when I think about it, I realize that none of it means anything in the grand scheme of things. It may not be comfortable to accept at first, but all of your relationships begin and end with you. The neurons and chemicals in your brain are the only contributing factors to any feelings of elation or joy that you hold, and are also what determine from the date you are born your intelligence, predisposition to make such relationships, and to succeed in life. In a way, we live in a deterministic, uncaring universe, and even at that, what is earth when compared to the big picture? When you look up at the stars at night, what do you see beyond the light? Do you perhaps think of the hundreds of worlds that we have yet to know? Earth is nothing when compared to the grandeur of the universe, the full extent and magnitude of which we will never completely grasp. And on earth, you are simply one of more than seven billion other people who are exactly like you in mostly every respect. Nothing about your life is special, and nothing about you is special. Your emotions and feelings hold no concrete value or worth, and ultimately mean nothing. Religion is basically a history of mankind's attempts to provide itself with some sort of higher, external meaning, usually in the form of a god or supernatural being. But this only begs the question: why would any god have any meaning? Who gives Yahweh meaning? Who gives Shiva, Brahmin, or Vishnu meaning? Who gives Allah meaning? Religion merely pushes the question backwards one step, and mankind is still left with no intrinsic meaning nor special place in the world. Even without religion, some people go on to become successful billionaires. Some even run for even higher positions of power... like Donald Trump is currently. But in the end, he's gonna die eventually, and when that happens, all the money he's made, all the hot European women he's banged, and all of the billions of dollars he's acquired over the years, all of it will mean nothing. Come a thousand years from now and I doubt anyone will remember who he is--that's assuming, of course, that we as a species even stick around for that long and haven't already destroyed ourselves by that time, which in all likelihood will probably happen sooner than later. So why bother? Material wealth doesn't get you anything. Nothing does. Neither component of our duality--emotional and physical--provides any lasting sense of meaning in the end. No matter how you look at it, the inescapable conclusion is that life is pointless and devoid of all meaning. We're children of the grave, and all of it goes to the grave eventually. From dust we came, and to dust we shall return; all we are is dust in the wind. Kefka Palazzo, the antagonist of Final Fantasy 6 and my personal favorite villain in all of fiction, asks the following questions during the player's final confrontation with him: "Why do people insist on creating things which will inevitably be destroyed? Why do people cling to life, knowing that they must someday die, knowing that none of it will have meant anything once they do?" Really, there is no meaning to any of it at all. That's why life sucks. The simple fact that I, and some others, can't find a friend, is a laughably pathetic non-issue in comparison, especially when considering that these relationships have no intrinsic meaning to them either. If you haven't thought of it in these terms before, then consider yourself lucky that you haven't had to go to sleep every night, tormented by the absolute absurdity and meaningless which marks this Sisyphean, empty life on this small, insignificant planet known as earth. If you haven't thought of it in these terms before, then be grateful that your only complaint is that you're feeling a "little lonely in game." There are easy ways to cope with that anyway, like simply training on your own to waste time and watching as the histrionic drama unfolds over the smegas for everyone to see. Who needs friends when you have class-A entertainment at your fingertips? Sometimes it feels like the greatest joy in life is watching the stupidity and emotional trainwrecks that result from the human condition, which is a far, far bigger joke than anything else that anyone will ever tell you.
i hope somone read this too, this took me forever to read and it probably took you forever to write i do not understand everything you've just said, but are you saying that you thinking about all this everynight?
