Get it off your chest!

These past 2 weeks have felt like I'm living in a nightmare but won't wake up. Yay for beer though, right?

 

I hate the fact that your life is happier without me in it.

 

1) I wish you would stop underestimating me.

2) I wonder when the turning point of my life is.

3) I feel like I'm losing the person I lived for.

4) I wish you didn't tell me I can't do anything right.

 

Thank you for supporting me, thank you for being there for me when I needed it and thank you for being the best friend anyone could ever wish for... Well, more than friends now.

 

I think I'm finally convinced.
You will always be a selfish little prick.

 

How many times do I need to say no?
I don't care if he's good looking.
I don't care if he's an engineer.
I don't care if he has his own home.
I don't care if he has money.
I do not care if he's not a manwhore
No, I do not want to give you my number to give to him. Quit trying to take my phone.
I am not interested. I am not looking.
If you ask me one more time or dare to call yourself with my phone to get my number, I will not be nice. I do not care if you're my moms age. Do not disrespect my words and decisions.

 

You've been through /15/ unsuccessful relationships in the past three years. What the hell.
And I've been your friend through almost all of them, but now recently I realized why it never worked out for you.
It was never their fault, it was yours. You are a horrible person, and a friend.
If you keep on going like this, you'll end up alone.
Just don't come crawling back to me when you do, AGAIN, because I'll make sure to kick your teeth out instead.
Stand behind your words.

 

I said bless you twice two different times and you didn't say thank you.
When you sneezed the third time I didnt bother to bless you.
Of course , you complained. Please learn how to say thank you F5

 

It's sad how someone you know and trust is just letting you down all the time.

 

I understand that I had to clear my barracks room to beable to leave here but I shouldn't have to sleep in my truck and be showering at the gym. I'm still I'm the army I shouldn't have to pay out of pocket for a hotel or live like a bum.

 

fix yo dam sht before attempting to add protection. too many failed runs.

 

I'm still in complete disbelief

 

I like to help anyone and everyone. I tend to put everyone before myself. I am not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing.
Please do not take advantage of my kindness.

 

I go through some great highs only to end up at the lowest of lows. "Life is like a roller coaster till it stops"
I guess I want to get off this ride but... then what. Shit always ends up the same when im happy its like.. how long until its back to feeling like the lowest piece of shit in existence.

I dont want to care i dont even want to think anymore i want to be unable to feel or have emotion at this point. Ive dulled my emotions holding myself back because of my expieriences just shit i cant shake off that i feel has shaped me. I havent loved any1 for years i just havent let myself nor have i cried in years because i litteraly cant. I dont want to get myself pulled in so i somewhat isolate myself only keeping few i really trust by me. Honestly thinking back to it. You were the biggest contribution to it. I would have fucken taken a bullet for you because i wouldn't want to live a life without seeing you.. what was i to you.. I dont even want to fucking think about and havent for so long but really jsut fuck it all thinking back my life is was and is shit. These days its different. After i just stopped being a human being. Just being a sentient emotionless figure because any other way and the world fucks me. I could feel a love so strong for people that i could get hurt so bad. shit that happened in my life just hurt me more and more but you were like my light hope something i had to hold onto. i dont know any1 with a more tender soul and over the years of abuse ive hardened my core and locked it all away. I remember after that incident i went through a month of depression what lead me to start writing lyrics poems and raps. I wouldnt talk i would sleep all my classes lunch all night i would listen to music that would exuberate my feelings i would be sad but music would make me content in my sadness. Music was the only friend i remember in my past who didnt eventually fuck me over. God there is so much fucking more i can write. God i wish i could fucking talk with you again and explain shit. Fuck my life.

I can only be happy when im not thinking because if i dont forget i wont ever be happy. These days things have changed i have changed ive grown matured but i still feel the same way and though now my life is going alot better theres some shit in my past that i just cant let go. Maybe one day ill post the poem i wrote about my life.. it would express myself alot better then i could here.

 

Could you just leave them alone already? You cannot hold a grudge for life. You have to learn to forgive.

 

Cut the crap. I tried being your friend and the moment you learned I was Oldie on the forums you started ignoring me, then you deleted me from bl.

Whenever you contribute to a forum thread I try sending you a friendly message "thanks for the constructive feedback" "I appreciate it" (And I know you were online you sent a smega just moments ago)
you flat out ignore me. You're not here to help others and make them feel happy at all then.

I'm here to stand up for those that don't have a loud enough voice, and try to promote change that makes a fair and more enjoyable experience for everyone.
Sometimes I am not good at expressing myself, and people things the wrong way, then I am forced to stand up for myself.
I do not have any bad intentions to hurt anyone.

Please tell me what I am doing wrong that causes people to hate on me.

 

I really wish you'd stop messaging me. I've tried to make it work and it just doesn't. I'm with someone I really care about and despite me expressing that to you, you (seemingly) refuse to respect that.

 

I wish you would stop judging me. Yes, we made a mistake. It already happened, it's not something I can simply change, alright? I learned my lesson, no need for you to tell me 27 times. If the same thing were to happen to you, would I judge you and be a dick about it? No. So could you please do the same? I would appreciate that. If you can't do that, then go away, I don't need people in my life that only judge me and are douchebags.

 

YOU'VE BEEN FRIENDZONED STOP TRYING M8.