Get it off your chest!

This is unreal. Like really, you are destroying not only your life but theirs as well. I always thought everyone always has time to change, but I think for you, time has run out. They've done so much for you, you need help, and now it's so bad, worse than anyone has ever seen. And no one knows what to do. This is bad.

 

If you've got a problem with me, talk to ME about it. We can't resolve things if you don't even try.

 

Let me help you ;_;

 

If I do what I want, I'll get disowned. If I do what they want, I'll never be happy, and I'll live my entire life in hatred. So what do I choose? The family , who's respect and love I crave, or myself, even though I have no idea who the fuck I am or who I want to be?

And you? What's the point of you being with me if you're leaving? Stop fucking around and making me have feelings for you, if you're already planning on crushing them.


So many problems. In every fucking direction.

 

I want to still visit but going for solely a week is never enough.

 

Finally got to sleep in my bed and didn't have to spend 18h on the toilet today.

 

I wish I could tell you

 

Today terrorists attacked a city one of my friends lives in.
It's becoming unbearable,people dying around me everywhere,everyday...
makes me so pissed off to know that I can't wait for the bus or just chill outside anymore without being on my guard.
Fucked up reality...

 

W h w a m. I w a p f o e.

 

I can't get used to this cold... LF> Summer again.

 

Here are a few rants that I had from weeks ago:

Day 1:

Dear Miss @#%!,
I don't get it.
It's like it was Cupid's arrow doing a critical hit.
This feeling is so familiar.
It is like a mirror
A mirror of the past
I guess I took things too fast
Maybe it's cause you remind me of someone. Someone I deeply loved.

I've been constantly telling myself and others that asked me that you ain't pretty
despite everything I've told you, and I was so convinced that I had you right where I wanted you. Guess I was wrong. And you were right. I am a player. A solo player.
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Day 2:

Dear Miss @#%!,
We speak yet again
You seem to always find me when
you are in distress.

I guess I can be your Superman
But do I want to be?
You fucked me over a kabillion eighty times.
How many more fucking times will I keep holding on?
Why do I even bother?

You are taken.
You are not the most gorgeous one in the world.
Why is it that you keep making my head twirl?

I guess I am waiting for a rebound.​

 

Just talking to you makes me want you even more
Why do I even bother when I know I don't deserve you
I feel like I should try but I don't
I'm afraid, simply afraid of what could be
And what can't be.

 

I wish I could just make it in without worrying about it. Modelling my life, everything I do every day is to get in.
I need to not care so much about it, maybe that will help me out.
Apparently Losing all hope is freedom ... If you live life without expectations, you will never be disappointed. I just cant wrap my brain around this ..

 

Oh shit. I REALLY hope I didn't mess anything up. I'm really nervous now.

 

Pain please go away... Sobs it hurts so much...

 

I feel like everything I do turns out wrong.

 

I want to leave please let me go!!!

 

I feel like getting under 96% and under on a Chemistry Test is such a disgrace. I didn't feel like this before.

 

One of my best friends has been ditching me for her boyfriend for the past year and every time I ask her to try and make some time for us two to hang out she does so for about a week. Thanks for always being there when I need you (or whenever you aren't busy fucking your boyfriend).

 

I feel like you're just using me to get to something but I really can't tell why you would do that to someone like me.