Get it off your chest!

i once asked one of my lecturer what was the worst thing you ever felt?
you have an incredibly successful family bussiness
you make 200k a month
you fly to another country just to eat noodles
you get to meet sultans from other countries
but u quit all that to be a lecturer?
he told me the worst feeling was
all the time he strive so hard to be at the top
and now that he succeeded
he feels empty "is this all there is?" he said to me

im sure most people understands that having money,a perfect physique, a perfect resume, etc... does not guarantee fulfillment.


9 years ago that wasnt so clear to me
but this days i constantly ask myself is it even worth it?
there are times when i achieve high standard and from then people expect high standard from you
and its so hard to be myself when people constantly expect high standard
but at the same time i do want people to take me seriously
such a paradox... life just got harder instead of easier...
failing becomes a nightmare
im in my 20s and im already feeling tired...
my body is torn from injuries...

the world is getting more and more complex
the answers are not that straightforward anymore
but i wanna convince myself
that i will go on and ill keep searching despite everything

 

28 more days to absolute bliss with you
can't wait

 

I miss you so much my old friend. There are so many fake and stupid things happened, it seems like it will eraser the good memories. But it cant, it's always and will always the stupid shit and everytime i have to face with it, i just want to vomit, and the good memories with you back again. Why you not there anymore, why your are far from me now.
Yes i should be strong even if you not here anymore, but i miss you and just want you to be here.

Spoiler

 

lost the final coinflip twice

 

You came into my dream the other day.
But I could not remember the details of the dream.
It is not about us in the past, but is the present.
But I only know it feels so real.

Spoiler

I look at the plushie you gave me, and wonder about the dream.

 

I hate fake people.

If you don’t like me just gtfo my life

 

why y'all out here reserving slots for your design a chair submission

y'all better actually submit a chair or be prepared for a perma forum ban

 

Report people for bundle shop scam? Why dont you report yourself for being stupid? Isnt it your eye see it and your hand click buy?

 

..I've done it 2x by mistake cuz I was lit, but to be fair the other person screwed up too. I paid back the guy the first time it happened but the 2nd time I couldn't tell who bought what for how much because the store didn't indicate the price my all cures were bought for by X player. Both times no one left a message.. surprisingly the first guy noticed his mistake and didn't even try to get his $ back. Kind of gave up on refunding the 2nd group because one of the buyers BL is full so cba going on a crazy hunt to fix OUR mistakes. leave a msg if u notice ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

tldr: accidents happen

 

Whenever I'm up against someone who is as good as I am in gauntlet race, my pulse goes up skyhigh. Gauntlet race might give me a heart attack soon

 

I've let you hurt me so much for so long, I detest you and myself right now.

 

It's already 12 years.
The lingering feelings, it's always there.

 

Wait so long again

 

Good god. After 24 hours and I still feel like I need to bleach my eyes, brain and soul.

 

if you dont have insomnia then youre lucky

 

You made me do this ... now u pay for it

 

these university websites are shockingly unprofessional

 

Sometimes we create our own heartbreaks through expectations ^

no expectations no disappointments?