Get it off your chest!

Fuck my life

 

I'm so over it

 

More gameplay, less drama? Nah, you're just on MapleRoyals.

 

Why. Am. I. Doing. This. To. Myself.
UGHHHHHHHHHHHH

 

fuckin pineapples grow on trees fuck this shit

 

He may be on the spectrum, but for God's sake, give him the belt once in a while
Who the fuck refuses to eat Taco Bell if there's cheese on it smh
Fuckin brat

 

I keep telling myself everything's going to be fine in a matter of a few days but that seems so far away.
(╯︵╰,) ugh.

 

If all you're good for is breathing in and out, then even an AC unit is more useful than you.

 

Finally got the courage to ask her out and she asked me what took me so long


Yay so happy

 

It's arrogant to think just saying things out loud is enough. Self-gratifying on the part of the speaker, and conceited on the part of the listener. You won't always come to an understanding by talking things out.

 

Sometimes, it's better if you don't bring anything up

 

Don't put me on their level. I don't care about looking interesting. I'm just self-conscious.

 

I understand why you buy things in bulk when there's an offer on them - makes perfect sense. But where are we going to store 45 litres of cat litter??

 

Why on earth does a monitor that is described and pictured as having a DVI-D port come with ONLY a friggin' VGA cable?? Just as well I happened to have an adapter.

 

bitch pls

 

Spoiler

I dont know what to do anymore. Ive been dealing with severe on and off anxiety and depression for so long. I thought I was cured but it came back this morning. My life is fine and there are so many millions in the world that have it worse than me, but I just cant function. I am a piece of shit. everyone has their problems, we all have something going on, it wouldnt be fair to put my problems into anyone elses life. My parents dont deserve it, my family doesnt, my friends dont. I wish I had ended it a long time ago when I was at my worst. I cant live the rest of my life like this. I have to have a mental illness. I need to fix this but I just dont know what to do. Trying to fix this means I probably drop of out school and take time to reevaluate my mental health, but Icant be a failure. I cant live life being a failure. I am too smart to do that. I feel like I am such a waste. There are so many people that would put my intelligence, my physical abilities, my anything to better use than me. Everytime this happens it takes part of me with it. And I know whenever my parents and family finds out or walks in on me having a mental breakdown it takes part of them as well. Its just not fair. Not fair to anyone else. I've probably done this to myself. It has to be my fault. There isnt any reason for any of this. But I dont know what to do. I have friends who have gone to rehab and mental hospitals for rehabilitation, but that cant be me. I cant go through that and live a normal life. I shouldnt even be normal. I should be successful, with so much going for me. But I cant even do that with all the fucking tools I have at my disposal. I hate everything I have become, or at least think I have become. I dont even know at this point. Am I a failure or do I just think I am? Am I in a downward spiral because of a mental illness or do I just think I am? Is there even anything wrong with me, or am I just a fucking spineless little shit that cant get his mind together and do what has to be done and ends up resorting to anxiety, depression, and mental illness as a way to cope with me being unable to live up to my own expectations of what I should be? Man. fuck me. I really dont know what to do. I just want to live a normal life....thats all I want...just a normal life. But again, there are so many millions in fucking shithole worse conditions than me, my life is perfectly fine. Im not a child slave in africa or a fucking 13 year old sex slave some where. I have no reason for this to happen to me. Why does this happen?

fuck

 

managing this is the hardest thing to do but I don't want to be a disappointment

 

I don't stand a chance against her.

 

I thought I could count on people who have been there for me, but you know..
I found the answer that people who you considered good friends wouldn't there for you from the beginning to the very end.
I have my ups and down days, but it's normal for everyone.
What isn't normal is to call someone bipolar without considering their actual feelings.
You know that it isn't right when someone cries twice over it.
You should've done what is right for everyone and stop the action that's going around,but knowing you, you wouldn't do anything for me.
Please be the bigger person and do something about it.
Now, I know who are my true friends and that's not you.
Don't ever talk to me again and continue your days.

 

With family issues, financial woes & a general lack of impetus in life, finally something good has surfaced in my life (clinched an internship with my dream company NBCUniversal ). Feels liberating & thrilling to have something to strive for in real life.

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I love this game, but I can't deal this whole new spectra of people I'm being exposed to through this very same game. Trolls, obstinate individuals, dismissive acquaintances. I'm not a gamer normally, I don't know how to deal with the social norms of the internet community, I get deemed as oversensitive or over-expectant or just inappropriate based on the societal norms of online relationships, & while both parties are at fault, I find myself often, if not always, taking the step back. Everyday when I log off, the disappointment ensued from whatever drama or conflict that occurs every single damn day, far outweighs the satisfaction of gaining whatever amount of EXP.

It's clear that with my personality, things are a lot easier to deal with in real life. Can't wait to just hit my personal goal of lvl 200 and get overwhelmed by real life commitments like the abovementioned internship so I can take a long, possibly indefinite break from here.