Spoiler Spoiler I have come to realize that, when it comes down to it there is only one person who can pull you out. That person is yourself. I have tried to follow a path that others have set for me and I have been asking myself for a while, "Is this really what I want?, Will this make me happy?". I have been told that happiness would be found later on the journey on this path, but why follow a path where you have to wait for happiness?. What is so wrong with me following a path where happiness is all around. I understand that others want what they think is best for me, and I'm grateful to have the support of such loving people, but. I think that I have finally realized that I have followed someone else's path for long enough, the person I see myself becoming is not my idea of "Best for me". I want to do something that makes me happy, and follow a path that I, myself think is best for myself. I am sorry that I cannot live up to the expectations, but it is me that will live this life. Perhaps this path I am setting on will fail, perhaps in the future I will realize that this path was not the right one, but at least it will be me who made the decision, and I will have my own experiences to learn from. I only hope that if that time comes, you will be there to support me as much as you are now. Just know that I am doing something that I love, and something that makes me happy. Hopefully my happiness makes you understand this decision I have made. Spoiler Happiness is not something that should be chosen by others for you. Happiness is something you choose for yourself.
It's funny how you can trust someone with your life and they just walk out like nothing ever happened.
I've been here to many times before. I know what to expect, I know how I'm going to feel, yet I can't stop feeling so hopeless. They say people learn from their mistakes and their experience, I'm the living proof this ain't true.
I'm not mad at you but let me act like I am and not say why I am when you ask me. Yeah that sounds mature and rational right?
Spoke yesterday, you hinted at conversations being cut short and then i realised i was one of those people; felt bad for dodging some of your questions but i just genuinely didn't want to treat you differently just because of your title. Sorry, good luck with what you briefly mentioned though, and hope to bump into you again soon :3
Why am I wasting my time? Is it worth it to make friends anymore; when in the end all you see is most of them walk away or I just end up pushing them out.
I've been thinking about you these past couple of days. I'm still hella mad, but I'm thinking about it.