Get it off your chest!

I swear the forum loads painfully slow with my home wifi in comparision to using my data

 

gracias por acompañarme tanto en momentos tan arriba y tan abajo.

y a ti, gracias por tu amor. lo guardo en mi bolsillo y lo cargo conmigo.

es como que hora de amarme a mí, creo.

 

someone pelase give him a x2 coupon compensation and undo what yall done
hes crying cant get back to his followers.......

 

The more I farm the more meaningless it all feels.
Why do I even farm when ppl can just poop 10x my net worth without doing anything?
Anyway, back to farming.

 

When i think back to when i was younger, how i was adamant that no matter what, id always be myself, im so ashamed of what i am today. As someone active in the online gaming space, Im scared to act like anything more than this vanilla boring ass version of myself. Im afraid people will think im weird if i dont act like this cookie cutter vanilla boring version of myself all cause im in my late 30s and supposed to be "an adult". Im just a big dumb goofball and wanna be silly and occasionally immature around people like i once was without fearing ill come off as "old man trying to fit in with the kids". As a result i feel like i dont connect to, or feel as close to other people around me. I often feel extremely lonely in my gaming, cause i feel like i keep people at arms lengths cause im trying to uphold this facade of being an adult. I feel like im the living embodiment of the "how you doing fellow kids" meme come to life. Idk if anyone else experiences this but i just wish i could shut that voice up in the back of my head and just enjoy video games with other people like i used too.

 

TRIGGER WARNING - extremely dark stuff and graphic/vulgar language due to the stuff happening in the last days. Read at your own risk. I am usually not the type of person to write stuff of that kind, and usually I never speak about this stuff. But now it’s different. My post might even get deleted and I might get warning or even banned because of the way I will speak .I dont care. I cant stay silent because of what happened few days ago. The world needs to know.


Imagine opening your live tv, and instead of hearing your typical political bullshit mumbo jumbo, you see your good friends business, someone you know since high school, who worked hard to make his business thrive and succeed at it, with customers coming from all over the country, literally. getting direct hit with a rocket sent by subhuman vermin terrorist garbage. Yes I WILL called them that and I don’t care what your privileged ass feelings and opinions in your MCmansion far far away. I was like you once and I know better than you what it is to live in a fucking privileged luxury bubble with zero worries, so STFU in advance.

Luckily, nobody was there, everyone I know is ok because the business was closed but still. Seeing this shit live on tv changed me forever.

Let me give you an idea what does that mean to me. This place they destroyed, helped me during my darkest period. When I went from being filthy rich to dirt poor few years ago, wanted to kill myself and was depressed and used hard drugs as a way of self harm I used to come there with friends and got cheered and felt better and eventually got out of my worst days and hard drugs and willing to die. I got through the worst times of my life in a place these subhumans destroyed. But not only the worst, I have also experienced the best. I used to come there in high school when I was 16, drinking and getting high as a kite with my friends and the business owner (after he closed) before a party or a rave (which these subhumans targeted as well). Or as an adult, after making life changing amount of money in literally 48 hours, I came there the day after with a bottle of scotch and cigars, and had the time of my life. I have faced there my good and my bad times. It is pretty much my third home. Everyone from that area knows each other and we have been through a lot.

The business owner aka the person who been with me when I was up and down, rich and poor, happy and sad? HE IS FUCKING TRAUMATIZED. He doesn’t speak to anyone or picking up calls since then, not even to me. The most positive and cheerful happy go lucky person I knew in my life, is a shell of his former self. Forever.

GIVE THEM HELL. עם ישראל חי!

 

עם ישראל חי!

 

עם ישראל חי!

 

Spoiler: ghosted

Love it when I'm home and waiting for a package that needs signing for and the driver makes every effort to be as quiet as possible, yet somehow manages to slip a 'sorry we missed you note'

 

good things come in small packages

 

You guys can complain all you want( probably with a reason) but at this point this actually feels nostalgic to me

 

I went to a Chinese restaurant and the sushi was mid, should have saw it coming

 

I kept trying to meme in the shoutbox while on a roadtrip, my internet kept going out, at a point I just had to give up because the timing was gone

 

People come and go, crushes form and fade, friendships aren't everlasting. Everyone is forever changing. The only constant is yourself so don't get lost.

 

I often wonder if my old Maplestory buddies think about me as much as i think about them.

It wouldnt be a stretch to say that i wouldnt be here had it not been for them. Its been 13 years since i spoke to any of them and I wish i had a chance to talk to each of them one last time and thank them for all that they did for me. I made it to adulthood because of them. It sucks, because we just played in a different period of the internet 13 years ago. Keeping in touch with internet buddies was different than it is today. Our Discord was Msn Messenger and not everyone even used it. People didnt freely give out irl names, and some of my closest of friends were still known just by their igns. Some of us gave out our phone numbers but you couldnt realistically text your international friends unless you wanted your parents to kick your butt for wracking up large international texting fees. And texting within the US itself wasnt even free. Most phone companies had a limit to how many texts you could have. And if you were in a family plan like i was you shared from a pool and were very limited. Overall keeping in touch with friends was mostly done within Maplestory itself. When i stepped away from the game for different reasons, i did so with the expectation and belief that my friends would still be there when i returned, and that i would return. But i didnt return. Not for almost 5 years and by that point nobody played anything i knew them on, and many others like me, had moved on.

I often find myself thinking back to what i once considered a really rough period in my life, very fondly now. I struggle with my emotions when i think back to those days sometimes. Despite that, I thoroughly enjoyed my time spent playing Maplestory with the people i did and have countless stories and memories that ill carry with me for the rest of my life

 

feliz casi cumpleaños para mí. espero disfrutarlo rodeado de amor y arte.

 

When a company posts an ad for a job, gives me a NO immediately even though I have most of what they are looking for, and then a month later I see the same ad for the same position again. Either you need to stop being picky and just hire someone even if they aren't perfect, or you don't actually need someone, you're just posting ads to seem more successful and put pressure on your employees.

Either way, I will happily re-send my application over and over again until you stop reuploading the same ad multiple times month after month. I got enough spare time to do that, pal
Good thing I'm not desperate for a part-time job right now, or this would have been even more annoying than it already is

 

man's bumping appeal like me staying hydrated...

 

I'm sorry, what is this cursed nonsense? I like foxes, but this is straight from a fever dream

 

"There is a point of no return in relationships. There's a line in the sand that once crossed, either one or both people in the relationship just cannot reverse what's been done. It's the point at which resentment has built up too high, words were said that were too cruel, and contempt has reached a peak in which it's incompatible with mutual respect."