Get it off your chest!

This seriously sucks.

 

I wish there's a turn off button to my brain. I hate overthinking so much of little things.... that makes my anxiety worst.
You know you have to stop thinking, you know how to. But it just doesn't stop.

 

Holy shit. My mom came into my room to bring me a plate of chicken nuggets and I literally screamed at her and hit the plate of chicken nuggets out of her hand. She started yelling and swearing at me and I slammed the door on her. I'm so distressed right now I don't know what to do. I didn't mean to do that to my mom but I'm literally in shock from the results this year. I feel like I'm going to explode. Why the fucking fuck is he losing? This can't be happening. I'm having a fucking breakdown. I don't want to believe the world is so corrupt. I want a future to believe in. I want Bernie to be president and fix this broken country. I cannot fucking deal with this right now. It wasn't supposed to be like this, I thought he was polling well in California???? This is so fucked.

 

Wake me up when September ends.

 

I want to be alone, but i feel lonely....

 

I liked you from the start but didn't expect you to turn on me at the end, I've not been there much nor i know what you've been threw, yet i still care ...

 

I have to go to school everyday in the morning at 8:00 AM yet I gotta wake up before then to get prepared so I wake up at around 6:30 AM but oh shit I'm still tired. I say fuck it and I sleep a little bit more but what do you know? It's 7:30 AM and I'm panicking thinking in my head "What the fuck?"
"What fucking century am I in?"

I spend a little time recollecting my thoughts and holy shit. It's 7:35 AM and I just sat there for five minutes doing absolutely nothing to benefit my situation. I say fuck it a second time and I quickly prepare myself for the ride to school, which takes about 10 minutes.

Or it would've.

Now we have deal with this damn traffic with no other option than to wait. Why is it that school starts at the same time people need to go to work?

All in all, school scheduling can go fuck itself.

 

Why the hell did my grandma not bring you to the vet..? Rest in peace, Maowang, you will be remembered. I'm so sorry you had to suffer from poisoning for hours because of my grandma's stinginess of not fuckin bringing you to the vet..... I love you. Hope you are doing well up there, you adorable kitty. Thank you for coming into our lives. I'm so sorry it was cut short........ I miss you.

 

You wait 1 or 2 weeks to get to hear that you get to wait another 4 weeks, to then get to hear you can wait 1 or 2 more weeks on top of those other 4 weeks.
This is not the kind of waiting game I enjoy..

 

I don't give a shit about all your problems.

there had to get it off my chest

 

8AM classes everyday for the next few months. Yay!

 

Have to get this off my chest.

8 AM isn't even early. Plenty of people start work at 6 am.

Spoiled kids these days..

 

One day you'll realise that I am who I am, and nothing more.
Though in present time you still believe I can conquer a mountain, while I can't even conquer a hill.

 

stuck between getting to the truth or just letting it pass

decisions, decisions

 

I dislike it when people, instead of giving help, downplay other people's problems because they don't feel it as something that is worthy enough to complain about.

We each have our own thoughts on what is and isn't problematic, so let people have their own complaints. Don't go out of your way to be a dick, or else you'll only be contributing to what you call a toxic community. Some thoughts and opinions are better left unsaid.

 

Please don't get a cat just to chase away rats. Because of your selfishness, he died. He suffered from poisoning for 15 long hours only then he's able to pass on because of you. If you really want rats to go away, hire a fucking pest agency. The poor boy had to suffer so long because of you.. I'm trying to move on but my heart aches just thinking of how much he suffered. He was a family member.. How could you treat him as a disposable. How could you.. Just because you don't want to pay money for the vet, he had to suffer and lose his life in pain. He didn't deserve that.

 

The moment that you want to sleep, your brain goes to hyper mode ready for action. Meanwhile at school you go brain dead... My brain is fascinated by the universe atm,
surely while have another anxiety later over thinking.. (hopefully not).
GG BRAIN!
well played

 

Spoiler

I used to like you. We've had many fun times throughout our years of growing up with each other. Walking through the desert, going to the mall, or straight up just chilling at my house. Hell, the fact that you had the balls to punch a wasps nest still kills me.

I thought we just drifted away from each other. You stopped talking to me and I assumed you were just 'done'. That was it.

Spoiler

But you were in prison the whole time.

Spoiler

I don't know how the fuck you ended up in there, but knowing you I'm sure you'll survive. By the time you come back, we'll be adults. You know damn well we're going to get back in contact, one way or the other. I'll be here waiting, the same as always.

 

Can't shake off this feeling of loneliness. I hate it. I love solitude but I hate loneliness too.

 

Bishops who don't rez you and laugh at you.

FEELS BAD MAN