Get it off your chest!

Sometimes I just don't know when to stop, and before I know it it's 7am again and I'm still up.

 

I been watching too much midget porn

 

I can't replace the person you lost, but I'm willing to do everything in my power to try to make you even 1/10 as happy as they did. That is, if you'd be willing to accept that.

 

How are you supposed to feel when somebody tries to tell you that "it will all work out well"?
I realize those are words that are meant to cheer me up and to encourage me. But instead of making me feel relaxed, I feel more panicked and pressured to try to control the outcome so that everything will turn out 'well'.

Sometimes (not always), I think it's better to tell someone that they can mess up, and that THAT is fine. Let them cry about it. Don't suppress those insecure feelings by telling them that everything will be fine, unless you can take full responsibility for those words when things don't go so well. Your attempt at making things better temporarily might end up making things much worse in the long run.

 

It's difficult to explain just how deep relationships with the people you meet on this game can be.

Most of the people we meet here, we'll forget as time passes. And that's okay. It's nice to say welcome back or hello to whoever logs on; that's just a basic friendly politeness. Most of our friendships are thin, passing, fleeting, held together by bossing, leeching, grinding, and just talking.

But every now and then there's a point where you cross the line with someone, to really see who they are as a person, to talk about and share secrets and struggles and fears. It's then when you connect, truly bond, with another person and not a character in a game.

Sometimes, you find someone who even the mere thought of them while writing this makes you smile so much that your eyes crinkle up. Someone who is as much your partner as you are theirs. To talk about the serious and silly and very funny, to share thoughts and feelings and lives, it's a special thing.

Sometimes, you find someone who tells you all the secrets about their life and you tell all the secrets about yours. You go to each other when you need help, even when you were losing it and couldn't bring yourself to talk to anyone else.

Sometimes, you find someone mired in all the struggles you used to deal with, still do, but it's easier now, and you're the one person who can understand, at least a little, of what they're going through. And they break down to you, and you love them to bits so you're just there to listen and help them, bit by bit, put themselves back together. And while you hold that person throughout their despair, you think just how glad you are that you joined the game to meet them, meet everyone else who you cherish and hold dear. And wonder just how people can try and hurt someone they simply don't know.

So to those of you who shittalk behind my back and those of others, I don't think any of you are shitty people, although you may do shitty things. But thing is, when you talk with people, really get to know them, as people, you probably wouldn't think that way of them. How you can shittalk someone who has genuinely tried communicating with you why you felt such a way, I suppose I'll never understand. I find it sad, but not hurtful. We simply don't understand each other, and that probably won't change. I don't wish any of you any ill will. I really don't. I merely hope you have felt the depth of emotion for another human being.

 

Spoiler: Fake shit

I don't know why you had to cheat on your boyfriend. You were together for four months. Four long months. I don't know why you couldn't just be loyal. He gave you time, space, his own energy, whenever you needed it. Now it ruined our circle of friends, because we lost both of you, forever. It won't be the same ever again without you two. You're so selfish for thinking about how you feel. How does he feel for being left behind? He's the loneliest among us. But I guess you can keep talking to that new guy you met. I'm sure he's the best you've ever had.

 

Me, two weeks ago: "I should try playing Maple again."

Me: a week and a half ago, jokingly: "The trouble with this job is that it interferes with my Mapling."

Employer, today: "Yeah, you've been great, but we're eliminating all but three positions...yours included."

Classic IRL.

 

meh... my life is filled with them. Lets add one more shall we? It'll only help the next time it comes around, or so I hope.

 

I HAVE NEVER SEEN A VAGINA

 

A spark can light us up, but a blaze will burn us both down.
I've gone too far this time, I'm sorry.

 

There's a big difference between actually wanting to talk to me vs wanting to reply to me. That difference decides whether I'll still want to talk to you in the first place.

 

Escaping from reality could be a good thing, but don't get lost, sometimes you need a dose of reality before you get hurt by it.

 

Does it really make you feel better about yourself when you delete the majority of your posts to increase your likes ratio?
As harsh as it sounds, I believe you're just trying to be someone you're not and if you want to be happy you should probably learn to accept yourself for who you are.
Please stop living in a pretentious world where you need fake fame to put a fake smile on your face.
I'm fairly sure that if you were to act like your true self, you could achieve far more than what you have right now.
Pretending doesn't only make life hard for yourself, it also makes it hard for people who see right through it.

 

I just had to delete several posts in here. For those who are coming into this thread and didn't read the original post when it was made 2 years ago:

 

Removed as I no longer wish it to be seen by public.

 

Judging a player based on their guild history is like judging an adult based on who they hanged out with at the ages 5, 10, and 15, respectively. It's unprofessional and immature.

 

Am I doing the right thing? It's a struggle, but I know I am good at this..

But is it really what I want to do?

 

Never knew how sad I'd feel about you quitting this game. I really liked your presence on maple and it made me want to login to talk to you. After you deleted your character, I felt really sad and even cried. Sounds stupid as it is to cry over a game but it made me realize how this online game can create such an impact to me.

I know online friends can come and go, but its those particular friendships that keep me going and logging on. I'm really thankful I didn't quit in September. I would've never met you if we both didn't come back.

 

Trust no one.

 

Spoiler

it was reckless I know but please just give me a hug and tell me it's going to be okay