I'm so excited but so nervous (I think I said this before, but it's more applicable now). Cannot wait!!
The decisions you're making right now make me want to cry, because they're just so bad and will only lead to more pain for you, which I don't want to happen because I love you. Please think about it again... :c
I wish you would realize that these "people" on the internet are my friends. Please stop telling me that they do not count. They talk to me, care about me, and are sometimes the only thing connecting me to the physical world. My depression is real, not something I fake. Please, for the love of god, understand that your actions towards me push me away. I love you, but you make me hurt more and more. Why can you not see this?
Fighting these urges gets tiresome. Sometimes it feels good to be self destructive. Should I stop? Of course. But why stop living when it's hard to find a reason to live for..
Sometimes I feel like I trust people too easily, but then I think about what they are going through and I pity them. So I choose to trust them, but in the end, they just take me for granted.. No second chances.
Without you I'm clear headed and too depressed to function. With you, I'm brain fogged and barely functional. Why can there not be a happy medium of clear headed and barely functional?
Stop acting like a disrespectful son of a ***** (sorry for my language) and thinking you own the goddamn place, Jesus Christ. I don't know how those you are being disrespectful to still treat you like a fucking god. But please, stop. I'm not gonna worship you lol.