Get it off your chest!

I have been waiting since fucking NOVEMBER for my first crate, that was bought for me as a gift from a friend. That was supposed to be a Christmas gift.
I've been checking my email every day since Jan 1st. I've been refreshing the god damn loot crate account page waiting to see my tracking info, for a crate that's supposed to arrive mid january.

And now I get the email that says my TRACKING INFO will come out at the end of the month. Meaning I won't get it until Feb, when the next bill is due anyway!

Time to just get off the computer for a while. I never get anything 'nice' for myself, I never can afford anything I /want/ rather than need (like ya know, food, gas, that kinda stuff). So this hurts because I've been sooo hyped for it for a while.

 

My life is going pretty swell, no complaints.

 

I fucking don't understand what's wrong with you. If you ain't gonna stick to your word because getting laid is way too important for you, then why on earth you fucking make plans with me on the first place? You just ruined my weekend twice

 

I need a cute dog to cuddle with during this harsh winter.

 

I need a duck or a baby panda.

 

Why should I bother continuing my sentence after you interrupted me?

No, a sorry isn't enough. That's just rude. I was in a middle of a sentence and you interrupted and then asked me to repeat what I said?

 

If you're going to burp, please make it a subtle release. Not belch for the whole fucking world to hear. It's gross.

 

It's hilarious how a customer who's previously banned for fraud's trying to purchase another service using completely different information with even proof of fake identity yet he can't use a different PayPal to pay. The extent of stupidity with people appalls me sometimes.

 

A storm's heading south and I'm probably gonna be guilty by association. Great.

 

You don't want to start a war with me.
I'm a snake, I've got very sneaky tactics and tricks up my sleeve.
I've drawn a line with my tail, if you cross it I will hunt you down to the ends of the earth.
Savvy?

 

I dont hate school. I hate the fact of waking up early in the morning, 8am classes should be illegal!

 

It's sad to know that my friends secretly hangs out without me.

 

I'm scared of the changes that future brings..

 

Hurts to confess your feelings to someone you cared and did so much for, only for them to shut you down and ignore you as if you're garbage to them.

 

You wanna know what feels like shit? Fucking up an amazing chance to a amazing relationship with an amazing girl... Now i just want to die, yey.........

 

TFW i got told i look like dane dehaan

 

Dollar in the woods, Dollar in the woods.

A certain Democratic candidate should

walk the plank.

 

A lot of people think that magic camp is just for kids. And that's why so many other people in my class were kids. Self fulfilling prophecy. It's um, it's really for anybody with a dream and a belief in magic and a little extra time after school.

 

Boss you are an absolute dickhead. Fuck you for letting do all the heavy lifting in your company, just get off your lazy ass and do it yourself.
''I pay you so it's alraight, okey good job.'' yea thanks for breaking my back, I don't need that thing anyway.

 

Spoiler: getting unnecessarily deep

Having one of those weird existential nights, aye. *warning, I may sound like super sad and lonely, but am ok *also I don't always make sense

It's my friend's birthday and I should have been there half an hour ago, and I won't be there for another hour and a half at the very least, I mean I'm even wasting time typing this up but my brain is racing because I'm thinking 'should I even bother going?' and here's the thing.
If I go I will have a nice time, I haven't seen these friends for a while and the birthday girl and I used to be close. Except we don't really talk anymore ever. I will have a nice time but I will go home when it's done and I will not speak to her for another few months until the next time I see her. It all feels very... shallow.
So, I think about my friends, the people I keep around me, I think I can count my meaningful friendships on one hand, even though facebook read 800 or whatever friends. I had the misfortune of losing my 2 closest friends last year, which I guess brought along this entire thing, but point still stands.

I'm bothering to post this here and not rant into my diary because I consider so many of you friends but when it comes down to it -and really, I expect you to agree- almost all these relationships are shallow. And I guess I am not happy with that.

I don't know why, and hey, maybe it's just me, but I used to let myself get dragged into these situations where I just felt the need to impress all these people I don't know, I had to make as many shallow friendships as possible, surround myself by all these names, but I'd always find myself on weird existential nights like this wondering who I can actually talk, and I don't mean about bad things, I mean about useless crap too, who can I actually just tell how my day went to? When was the last time someone's actually asked me that? haha.

So I'm thinking, I want to make friends who won't cancel on me when someone better comes along and friends who's birthday I organise not stall going to.
I'm just a little done with pretending to care about people I don't really care about and chasing friendships that don't really mean much to either of us.
Just want something better than this, really.