Come the fuck on, if you're going to be this trash at flanks, why didn't you take a tank instead of fucking feeding all game expecting me to carry. Fuck off.
I really need to talk to you about this because it's been making me sad and paranoid and obsessive again and talking to you helps, but also I know you get mad seeing me like this and you want to take things into your own hands and fix them and as much as I love you for wanting to that, all I need from you is to listen so I feel a little less sad about this whole ordeal.
The last one wasn't actually aimed at you, but this one is. Isn't it funny how people who make poor decisions so often make the same mistakes after them, though? Stop thinking that I hate you. I never did. I should fucking hate you. The things you said to me weren't okay. The way you treated me wasn't okay. The complete and total lack of respect you had for me wasn't okay. From day one, all I ever did, all I ever wanted to do was help. Help you, help your peers, help your subjects, help everyone. Even when everything in me screamed to just walk out and never look back, I stayed and kept trying. Not for you, but for everyone else. And that's what I still continue to do. When I say something that disagrees with you, stop thinking I'm just saying it to antagonize you and start actually reading what I'm writing. If I'm saying it, it's because you're making a goddamn mistake and I need to make sure you know it. I used to be able to do that without involving the rest of the world, but because of your own boneheaded actions, now I have no choice but to let everyone see it. That's your fault, not mine. I'm not the one who was unwilling to hear the truth. I'm not the one who ignores it. I'm not the one who shoves it all aside and lives in my own goddamn bubble. I live in the real world. Feel free to join us here one day. I do not hate you, but I wish that I did. Hating your selfish arse would give me more relief than a thousand angry vent posts. I wish I was the monster you think I am. I wish I had the strength to say everything I have in my mind. I would gladly give in just to watch you have to deal with that. I will not give my dignity for your selfish desires. And I know I'll get no justice here, so I will let the gods decide my fate. And I'll just watch and laugh until you admit you were wrong. You know my terms. I'll repeat them if you've forgotten. I'll watch and laugh until everything burns to the ground - if your stubbornness is worth that, so be it. You know there's a way out.
I hate how powerless I still feel around you. I hate that I suddenly run into you everywhere. Maybe you've really changed. Maybe you haven't. I don't think you have. At all. You're still toxic waste. Poison works just as well as a bat. You always make me feel small. I am not small. I am big. and Bold. and Bright. It's getting harder to justify silence. I think I have to do something, or it'll haunt me. You're not scared of me? Watch me. I did it once. I can do it again.
I used to like this thread for the amount of really random and mysterious posts that were here, but everything turned into a one huge drama thread. Like I get all y'all finding a cool way to speak to the community without that being taken down but god damn this is becoming one hell of a mud and people are drowning.
The long wait will come to an end tomorrow, but now the question is if I will see improvement or if I will end up disappointed.
I'm really stunned after reading some forum posts here. I didn't know there were even such things going on. Every saint has a past, every sinner has a future.
Why bother being friends and we know you’re just taking advantage of me. Stop being fake -__- edit: it’s also pretty ridiculous how everyone starts to care when you’re not “acting like how you used to be”. Maybe take a step back and look at what you’ve done and how all it takes is a couple of words to bring someone down. You might not take it offensively, but it’s definitely hurting someone.
Why do I wait until the last minute to do work? Why do I deprive myself of sleep? This is not healthy.